MY BUCKET LIST

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I know this write-up sounds very cheesy but I’ve always wanted to write out my bucket list and document it such that I can revisit it in 10 years and see how far I’ve gone. And what better place to do this than here? Now this is an inconclusive list as I intend to cross out stuff as I achieve them and add new ones with time. But then again, what’s the point of a bucket list if you have to keep updating it? Correct me if I’m wrong but shouldn’t it be one definite list? I really need to ponder on that. Without further ado, I give you my list of stuff I’d really like to achieve within the next 10 years!

• Visit Paris (Again)!
• Skydive.
• Have a romantic dinner in a private airplane while soaring over downtown Dallas.
• See the Grand Canyon.
• Visit the Canadian side of the Niagara Falls.
• Go on a European tour (I’m thinking Road trip).
• Kiss at the top of the Eiffel Tower (Maybe I should cross this off… I mean, been there done that).
• Ride a bicycle (blame my dad – he never took my training wheels off).
• Birth twin girls (I'm not God. I know!).
• Learn two new languages (I don’t know how feasible this is but French and Italian maybe).
• Go back to Spanish class and become fluent in it.
• Get a PhD (Boring! I know).
• Pet a member of the big cat family (Preferably a lion because… Leo).
• Join the military (who would have thunk)!
• Fly an airplane (I kid you not)!
• Go snorkelling and then scuba diving… but before that,
• Learn to SWIM – not all that shallow water shenanigan that I kid myself with.
• Swim with dolphins.
• Swim to the edge of a waterfall at Devil’s Pool, Zambia.
• Really live life – if you know me, you’ll know that my life is based on a routine. I start a new phase, settle into a routine and almost always, never break the cycle. Maybe I get too comfortable or maybe I get scared of the unknown. But whatever it is, I need to break that chain and really LIVE. I’m hoping I get the strength to do that one day because like the saying goes, YOLO.

That’s about it for now folks. My very own BUCKET LIST.

THE HAND OF GOD

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Thank you Jesus! Have you said it today?

A lot of people will say yes to that. An average Christian says this at least twice daily. However, it has become something so routinely said that it almost sounds insincere. A lot of us (Myself included) are guilty of this.

We focus on and get carried away by how our lives are going and what we think God is not doing that we fail to see all that he has done. We begin to doubt God and question why we should be thankful. In our little minds, He hasn’t done much. We feel reluctant to give praises to God simply for being who he is. But because we are Christians, we also feel obliged to thank God. Hence, it becomes a routine.

I’ve been so guilty of this and it almost led me to depression.

2017 was supposed to be THE year for me. I was ready to leave all uncertainties and setbacks in the year 2016 and I marched into 2017 full of confidence and excitement. So I might encounter a few challenges along the way, who doesn’t? I took gallant strides knowing that God was in absolute control. However, my gallant strides soon became hesitant walks until it gradually slowed down to a troddle.

I began to question God. I stopped praying. Stopped reading my bible. I stopped counting my blessings and focused on my losses. In doing so, I started feeling some type of way about my maker.

The past few weeks (more like days) have had me reflecting on this. And I realised how selfish I’d been. I counted all that he has given me and none was missing. Grace has indeed been sufficient for me.

Yes I’ve been faced with challenges, disappointments and setbacks but God keeps shining a light right through the tunnel. He has paved ways in the wilderness, has used complete strangers to bless me and I know he is not about to stop.

Depression has knocked on my door severally but Mercy said NO. I am still standing tall and forging through.

This year, I’ve felt like I was invincible to God. I felt like he didn’t know me and I accused him of not seeing me. But He has drawn me even closer to himself.

I’m still forging ahead, still fighting. Only this time I’m doing so knowing fully well that I am more than conqueror through him that loved me (Rom 8:37)

Here I am pouring out my heart while analysing my seemingly “low moments” this year and how God has shown himself.

A wise friend once said, “…if I thank God for his finger, He will show me his hand".