THE HAND OF GOD

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Thank you Jesus! Have you said it today?

A lot of people will say yes to that. An average Christian says this at least twice daily. However, it has become something so routinely said that it almost sounds insincere. A lot of us (Myself included) are guilty of this.

We focus on and get carried away by how our lives are going and what we think God is not doing that we fail to see all that he has done. We begin to doubt God and question why we should be thankful. In our little minds, He hasn’t done much. We feel reluctant to give praises to God simply for being who he is. But because we are Christians, we also feel obliged to thank God. Hence, it becomes a routine.

I’ve been so guilty of this and it almost led me to depression.

2017 was supposed to be THE year for me. I was ready to leave all uncertainties and setbacks in the year 2016 and I marched into 2017 full of confidence and excitement. So I might encounter a few challenges along the way, who doesn’t? I took gallant strides knowing that God was in absolute control. However, my gallant strides soon became hesitant walks until it gradually slowed down to a troddle.

I began to question God. I stopped praying. Stopped reading my bible. I stopped counting my blessings and focused on my losses. In doing so, I started feeling some type of way about my maker.

The past few weeks (more like days) have had me reflecting on this. And I realised how selfish I’d been. I counted all that he has given me and none was missing. Grace has indeed been sufficient for me.

Yes I’ve been faced with challenges, disappointments and setbacks but God keeps shining a light right through the tunnel. He has paved ways in the wilderness, has used complete strangers to bless me and I know he is not about to stop.

Depression has knocked on my door severally but Mercy said NO. I am still standing tall and forging through.

This year, I’ve felt like I was invincible to God. I felt like he didn’t know me and I accused him of not seeing me. But He has drawn me even closer to himself.

I’m still forging ahead, still fighting. Only this time I’m doing so knowing fully well that I am more than conqueror through him that loved me (Rom 8:37)

Here I am pouring out my heart while analysing my seemingly “low moments” this year and how God has shown himself.

A wise friend once said, “…if I thank God for his finger, He will show me his hand".